i have difficulty expressing myself, and i am horrible with words
yet, i like people and communication and interaction
so, as you can imagine, this proves to be quite a problem,
in which i am constantly searching for a solution.
i contradict myself a lot but that’s because i am never sure of my thoughts.

some say "you are what you like," so
if i am what i like, i am the color grey, the sound and feeling of the rain,
bookstores and coffee shops,
good conversation, letters, proper use of grammar,
cuddling and hugs, spooning and sex,
flaws and good intentions.

i don't like myself much, but i think that's because i have been smothered with expectations all my life.
accepting yourself is difficult if you are trying to do what everyone wants you to do.
i am afraid of being alone.

But, I am trying to find myself – I am learning to live with and accept myself.
As with this, all I am doing is stringing my thoughts together and hoping that this makes some sense.

My name is Jessica and Let's make each other feel good.
and I don’t mean that with a sexual connotation, but
I’d like to be able to be comfortable around you.

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